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yes, I did

My first blog when I started this was about "finding me". Matt asked me yesterday if I'd found "me" yet and it made me think...

In January, I got divorced and almost a year later, I still believe it's the best decision I've made. And the smartest. While I've still had some struggles with it in between, I have no regrets.

A month later, that perfect man walked into my life. Perfect. Every single thing about him is perfect, all the way down to his snores at night. He makes me feel invincible. I could conquer the world with him by my side. Some times, its a bit overwhelming. I've never experienced these emotions before. I feel like my heart will explode in my chest. I could cry rivers of joy. But then I sit still, staring out at the stars off my front porch and this blanket of peace covers me completely. Nothing like it in this world.

I've spent 31 years living in fear over one thing or another. Today, I'm proud to say, I no longer live that way. I fear nothing but the power of God and in my opinion, that should be all. I truly believe I feel the love of God through Matt. I get my strength from him. Courage. True self worth. I. Love. Me.

Wow. That is a big statement. I can't say that I've ever told myself that. That makes me smile but it kinda makes me sad inside. It's taken me a long time to get here. The journey was long and very trying but in the end, very worth it.

How many times have I prayed for peace? Love? Happiness? Security? Too many and I remember those nights. Those memories are beginning to fade because the new memories I have now are joyous and wonderful and they overpower all the bad in my past.

So Matt-to answer your question. Yes, yes I did. I found "me"...when I found you. I love you. :)

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