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No do-overs in life. Time to release and let go of the past forever and move on with a clean slate. Free. New. Better than ever and knowing in my soul that THIS path, right here, right now, is exactly where God wants me to be. I live it; I breathe it, I HAVE FAITH in it.

I have forgiven myself, God has forgiven me and I have forgiven those that have wronged me. It was hard, it was scary but I did it and I have NO REGRETS in life. None. There were things I wanted to hold onto but when I think about it now-why? Why hold onto the things that hurt us? I don’t understand why people do it and I still don’t know why I did it but I know I AM FREE. I can take this final step into my life and know, with a doubt, I’m right where God meant for me to be. HE answered my prayers, he delivered me and HE LOVES ME.

I remember nights I’d cry myself to sleep or hide in a closet, wishing I could run from the world; run from life. Praying…oh how I prayed. I’ve dropped to my knees in tears crying out to God to FIX THIS- FIX ME. And now…as I look back at the last year and all that has transpired. It’s mind-boggling to say the least. I have more than I prayed for and the blessings just doesn’t stop coming. Yes, I had moments of doubt and fear but then I realized…I cannot control anything! Only GOD can! It’s a hard pill to swallow for a control freak like myself but it’s true. LET GO AND LET GOD. It works!! I’m living proof of that. Only a handful really know, I mean REALLY know what took place in my past. I know how far I’ve come-how much I’ve grown and changed. My heart soars with joy.

I have new people in my life who love me and encourage me and these are the people I need, want, desire…Positive, uplifting, drama free!

I’ve never been more excited than I am right at this moment, sitting here-all the possibilities before me and this fantastic man that I get to share it with. I have hope like never before, I foresee something great, wonderful, amazing and breathtaking and there is no one else in this world I’d rather share it with. Him and our four children…I cannot conceive!

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him"--1 Corinthians 2:9

I could shout this verse from the rooftop! It is TRUE!

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