If You Only Knew

Friends. I don't have many. I know a lot of people but they aren't all my friends. Those would be called acquaintances. Just in case we needed some clarification on that subject. I've never had many friends growing up and even now. I am what you'd call a loner, I suppose. I have a difficult time trusting people and even more difficult time socializing. It is just not my thing. I prefer small, intimate scenes and get togethers. I guess that's one reason I've never been big into bars and dives. I like loud music in my car or when I'm at home cleaning house, not when I'm enjoying a drink and the room is full smoke and we can't hear ourselves think much less talk. Nope, I'm a homebody. I'd rather travel and visit nice places. Anyway, back to friends. For me, if I call you my friend, it is a pretty big deal. Yes, I'm 33 years old and this is how I feel. It is not childish, it is important. Relationships (friendships) help you grow as a p...

These words rank right up there with "I love you" and "I do". Those are some powerful words in my book. Especially when they come from my husband. As you can see, I'm recovering quite well. Other than feeling like I got socked in the jaw, I'm peachy. Snacking on crazy bread my awesome hubby got me and camped out on the couch watching reruns of "The Mentalist", life is sweet. I'm not a bible thumper. I'm not gonna force religion on anyone. It  is just not my thing. When I met Matt, he was a self proclaimed atheist. Over the years, I've seen that change in him. We talk more about our beliefs, our spirituality, what we believe the afterlife holds for us. We've been to a Buddhist temple together and realized that our mind frame and beliefs fell in line with what Buddhists believe. We don't worship any one particular God but we both agree there is A God. We believe it isn't necessary to go to church to pray. I can pray whenev...

Matt and I believe we knew each other in our past lives. No, it is not crazy. We also believe we will be together again in our future lives, whatever they may be. Why? We are pretty close. Close as in, we finish each others thoughts or sentences, we constantly say what the other is thinking or feeling. He thinks it and then I turn around and actually say it. We have so much in common. We like the same music, we like the same foods...you get what I'm saying. We are as close as two people can be without being related. Believe it or not, we've joked about that too. Huth (my mother's maiden name) and Hust...NO, we are not related. But it does seem pretty damn close. So I preface with that to go into my thoughts from earlier. I was on my way home from Publix, thinking about the kids and I think to myself, "In my next life, I wonder if I could do things right...maybe different. Having a good relationship and career first and then maybe kids." But who is to say what...

I'm sure you get tired of hearing me brag about my kids. So what. I don't care. :) My kids are awesome and as a mom, I have the right to do so. So here goes one more time! (But not the last time!) It is that time of year to pick schedules for the next school year. Yeah, I know, right?! Where has this year gone?? In the fall, I'll have a 7th grader and 11th grader. Just thinking about that makes me tear up. Someone slam on the brakes and rewind a few years, please! This is going way too fast for me. We are talking about college and moving and life decisions. It's pretty intense but as a mom, it makes me pretty proud too. Nate is ever more determined he's going to head off to California. I have some problems with that. While I'll never discourage my kids' dreams, I just don't think he's ready for that. Only time will tell but I'm trying my best to get him to stay a little closer to home, if only for a short while. Get a taste of the real world ...