If You Only Knew

Yesterday, I was accepted into Nursing school at Troy University. Yay me!! For most people, it was just a simple congratulations. Don't get me wrong. I'm ever so grateful for all the well wishes. But you have to understand the history behind it all. I've only shared that with two important people in my life; my husband Matt and my friend, Tonya. It's taken two years and four attempts for me to apply to nursing school. Timing was always wrong, grades weren't what they should be and I was getting discouraged. I had decided if I didn't get it this time, I was going to give up but I knew that attitude would get me no where. I left my job with the State before I knew my application status with Troy. I took a huge leap of faith. See, for as long as I can remember, I've always wanted to be a nurse. No, really. Even when I was a little girl, I said I'd wanted to be a nurse some day. Now, I know we all have our phases as kids of being doctors and lawyers and fire...

The most difficult thing ever for a parent to do is let a child go. My son has decided he wants to live with his dad when school starts. Hearing those words made me feel like someone ripped my heart out. He turned 13 this year. I didn't think I had to let him go until 18 but it happened alot sooner than I wanted. He's growing up fast and maturing even faster. I know that he needs his dad in his life to teach him how to be a man. In my mind I know this but my heart is having a hard time hearing it. That precious boy has given me 13 amazing years of his life and I've been blessed with being apart of those years. He wants to strengthen his relationship with his dad and that, in my eyes, is a sign of maturity. His dad will be able to guide him in areas of his life that I might otherwise not be able to simply because I'm not a man. I could be selfish and tell him no, but I can't look him in his beautiful brown eyes knowing that I've denied him something that is so ve...