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I prayed for you

These words rank right up there with "I love you" and "I do". Those are some powerful words in my book. Especially when they come from my husband.

As you can see, I'm recovering quite well. Other than feeling like I got socked in the jaw, I'm peachy. Snacking on crazy bread my awesome hubby got me and camped out on the couch watching reruns of "The Mentalist", life is sweet.

I'm not a bible thumper. I'm not gonna force religion on anyone. It  is just not my thing. When I met Matt, he was a self proclaimed atheist. Over the years, I've seen that change in him. We talk more about our beliefs, our spirituality, what we believe the afterlife holds for us. We've been to a Buddhist temple together and realized that our mind frame and beliefs fell in line with what Buddhists believe. We don't worship any one particular God but we both agree there is A God. We believe it isn't necessary to go to church to pray. I can pray whenever I want. I fellowship every day when I meet and talk with other people. I think it's pretty simple and I believe that's the way my God intended life to be.

I've been struggling for about 6-8 months with ear problems. I've been to doctors over and over again, trying to find out what the problem is. It was never an infection and the irritating doctors at PriMed thought I was drug seeking. So finally, my doctor suggested I go to my dentist and see if my teeth were the problem. Turns out my wisdom tooth was in my sinus cavity and he suspects I have TMJ. I never noticed it until my dentist brought it to my attention but when I'm stressed or in deep thought, I clench my jaw, grinding my teeth. I've caught myself doing it a few times. So between the chronic headache I'm on constant meds for and the ear aches, I was in a lot of pain at any given point of the day. He knew this and I know it is hard to watch someone you love suffer and there is nothing you can do about. So you can imagine my surprise when he confessed to me that he'd been praying for me that this tooth extraction would finally give me the relief I needed. I turned my head away trying not to show the tears that sprung to my eyes immediately. Those are some pretty powerful words. My heart pretty much leaped with joy and love.

I always knew I married a pretty incredible guy. I once said I could see God's love for me through his eyes. I truly believe that. He loves without fault nor judgement. Trust me when I say....I know how very blessed I am to have him. I pray for him everyday. :)

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